Gosh, everybody seems to be working so hard after the miserable test. I tried to maintain my excellent result last test, but I found myself to be not improving… I hate myself for not pushing the best I can. I really don’t want to disappoint people, especially the closed one.
I am very intimidated by people who are genius, and there a whole lot of students that really frightened me with that insane results. I am not confident at myself all the time, and the outcome of this exam really spank me hard on the face again.
The one subject that I was really really disappointed of was my English. I had a panic attack and was close to tears when I received my essay paper. Out of 35, I only got 27. I was literally shocked as some of those whose English wasn’t really good, scored higher than me… I may felt that I got a little too cocky, but it was a wake up call indeed. I had a little disadvantage because I don’t use many beautiful phrases in my essay. I got so furious that 2 students got 32 out of 35. THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY MARK, DAMN IT!
I did improve though, but it was not enough to compensate the deteriorating average mark of mine. One was really happy was my Chemistry. I love this subject so much, that I put in more effort in studying it, and it really paid off with a whooping 90 mark. It may not be the highest in the class, but I was pleased with myself.
I really don’t want to talk about my results, had an emotional shutdown these few days. I cried a lot… The exam papers were indeed hard for me this time around. Now, I am not at the top of the pack again… Ugh! Freaking confused and lost…
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