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22
Nov
09

The Teachers (Part 2-In School)

Time really flies, one year has passed so quickly. Form 4 is definitely an eye-opener as it is not a Honeymoon year or whatsoever. People who have this misconception are absurd, as the gap between Form 3 and Form 4 is vast. People, like me, can’t cope initially and just keep on falling and falling, until a certain point. We have to strengthen our base in Form 4 as next year’s SPM will be tested on what we learnt during Form 4 and Form 5. SPM is a major examination in Malaysia, and most of us, including me, want to pass the SPM will flying and flamboyant colours…

I just want to make my own analysis about the Form 4 subjects, teachers… I love to observe things and write them down before I forget… Maybe some time when I am older, I may look back at this blog and go, “wow, I’ve written so many things!”

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Chinese – Oh, the God forsaken subject that I hated the most before entering Form 4. Chinese has always been my Achilles’ Heel even during Form 1. There is something about Chinese that I feel vague about it and cannot fully grasp the richness of the texture of the subject. Plus, the traditional language of Chinese, which is included in our syllabus, adds more frustration for me, as I find myself stuck in translation into simplified Chinese.

Luckily, my Chinese teacher, Miss Lim Gaik Hoon, succeeds in making me to feel what Chinese is all about. She managed to make me feel interested about the subject and actually leaving me wanting to know more about the Chinese. Though I still need to brush up my writing skills, I think I’ve grown to learn more and to love more my mother tongue.  

English – I’m not trying to brag here, but I think my English is far better than my Chinese. Maybe it’s because I’m used to speaking the international language with my family members since young. I love English, I love to explore the vocabulary in English which will lave me awed and amazed. I wouldn’t say that my writing skills are good, I would just say that it is satisfactory. My grammar can be off at times if I am not careful enough. Sometimes, we tend to make mistakes when we are too over-confident at simple, petty stuffs.

My English teacher, Madam Khoo Ee Lin, is a good teacher. Her English is far better than mine. Her quotes in class are “Eh, hello!” and “Hey boys!” Ah, just step into my class and you’ll understand. She told us that she was once a hostile teacher but learned to control her tempers over the year. I think that’s something I need to learn, to control my anger inside of me that I don’t vent it out onto someone. She can be a bit long-winded a bit, but she cares for us deep down.

 

Malay – The oh-so national language of Malaysia that requires every student to learn. It’s a good thing, at least we can learn an extra language than the other overseas. wakakax. Screw you, cause I don’t like the subject, the vocabulary and grammar are annoying and endless… it seems that you can’t learn this subject at all, you need more practice, I guess. My writing skill is atrocious and I need to solely rely on the notes given to mimic the style of writing. I can’t write on my own… y’all trying to kill me if you are to take away my precious notes…

My Malay teacher, Mr Wong Cu Min is the first male Malay teacher that teaches me. He is Chinese and although he comes across as a stoic person, he has a sense of humour of his own which sometimes we get it, and sometimes we don’t. He is cool in a way that he doesn’t pressure us with tons of homework everyday…He is also my form teacher.

Modern Mathematics – Careless is the word that I can relate to when I think of both Add Math and Modern Mathematics. One little detail can change the whole thing. If you are careless at the first step, then you can say bye bye to full marks. Chung Ling students are famous for outstanding achievement in Mathematics. I can hear a lot of people getting full marks for the paper. I was like, how in the fricking hell can you get full marks? I get paranoid easily when it comes to calculations. I’m always not confident with my answer and have to rely on my friends. During exam, I sweat a lot… I think that this answer maybe wrong, then afterwards, I think that my answer is correct again. The mental stress that I have when I do Mathematics exercise is terrifying me.

Madam Ooi Soo Wei, the pregnant teacher, is my Modern Math teacher. She is very sweet and has an adorable smile, though she can be a bit “emo” at times. Do pregnant ladies get emo? I don’t know… She likes to interact with students when she teaches the lesson. She makes sure that everyone does their homework by checking at specific days. Of course, we like to run around to avoid the checking… She is funny when she speaks with her soft, squeaky voice in class. An adorable teacher, indeed. Too bad she is going to give birth to her baby soon… (can’t see her for a short while) I wish her all the best.

Biology – One of my favourite subjects in Form 4. I don’t like to memorize the facts only which makes my head turn right round, right round. What makes this subject interesting for me, is that we can learn many new things about the biological things around us, such as the function of different cells and the systems inside our body. It is amazing for us to know that may come in handy for us in the future. My Biology has been quite average for me this year and I wish that I can improve more during Form 5. You sometimes have to the risk while reading Biology selectively. Unless you have an enormous brain to fit everything in, you have to do some selective reading, and make sure you study the correct one.

Madam Pang Kee Tin, a recent mother, is my Biology teacher. I think she manages to teach us Biology without putting us to sleep. She teaches for a while and lets us to rest for a while to absorb what she thought. She does her own notes, which I like it, to ease our burden to take another text book for school. She is funny and caring also.

Chemistry – This subject requires 50 % memorization and 50 % calculation. I think this subject is fun when you can fully grasp the idea and the formulae well but if you don’t, you will be in deep shit because the whole subject requires you to understand and fully command a certain area. Till now, I’m not really good at understanding electrolysis, which terminal is positive or negative, and the quantitative analysis of different salt. These things just make me go haywire sometimes.

We changed a total of three teacher for this subject. My recent teacher, shown in the picture above, is Mr Chow Chee Kit, an ex-Chung Ling student. Don’t mess around with him, for he was a Chung Ling student before. He is not that strict but when he is desperate to get our attention, he will show his true colours. Although he is not very pro in Chemistry (but in Biology), he makes an effort to teach so that we may understand this subject, which I admire him.

Additional Mathematics – I was not so sure about where I stood in this subject, for it is a new subject to me. It has been a rollercoaster ride for me because I often find myself tangled between the complicated and challenging questions in the subject. I really feared throughout the year that I will FAIL for this subject as many had had. Luckily, I managed to stay in the average throughout the year but Chung Ling is famous for clever Math students la. I did well in the first and third paper but did not do so well in the second paper. Let us that I can do well for the final exam.

Mr Ang Chin Han, is my Additional Mathematics teacher, who loves to put technology into good use. Though he put his heart into this project, he always seems to forget what he prepared sometimes, which I find it quite amusing. All he got to do is press the keys and teach us, what a good way to not waste the inks of marker pens. The only thing I find is, that Mr Ang is very kind, too kind indeed. He does not scold the playful boys from behind, but keep advising them to tone down. I pity him sometimes for being so helpless to find out that the boys do not heed his advice.

Physics – A love-hate relationship do I have with his subject. This subject requires more brains to do this, rather than just memorize the details. I’m not a fan of tons of formulae and it takes a toll of me as I almost FAIL this subject twice in a row, and the feeling is not good at all! To apply which formulae on which question is what makes me so frustrating at times. My friends are all treating Physics like a piece of cake or a tank of water because they think that all it needs is brain, which I obviously don’t have at all. I simply don’t understand how the hell my friends can fully grasp this almost impossible subject.

Another Chung Ling alumni, Mr Choong Wai Leong teaching me Physics this year. Rumours has spread around the school lately, but I think how he dealt with the punches was quite good. I think the reason why we didn’t like him so much as the other teacher because of his lack of experience in teaching. I think he can improve a lot better by putting himself out there and be much more confident with himself. And, sometimes when he jokes, we don’t get them and maybe we really misunderstood him. I’m of no power to criticize anybody, so I just go wherever the wind takes me next year…

History – I absolutely love to read History since Form 2 because I happened to get a very good teacher that really encourage me to study this subject. To learn the subject, is to learn about the past and remember them so that we don’t repeat what mistakes they made. It is also our great opportunity to understand what our ancestors did to fight for independence for this nation. Yes, maybe we maybe we will fret, complain, moan about the endless history of a certain topic, but we are privileged enough to learn something that others may not. History requires 100 % memorization and 100 % ONLY! Learn the concept and memorize the details… Do not hesitate to waste time complaining about the subject.

Madam Wong Ying Pheng is my  History teacher for this year, and she also manages to not put us to sleep for this so-called “boring” subjects. She is strict and probably we are the quietest in her class because no one wants to make her mad. She is not the typical “FIERCE” teacher but she is strict enough to discipline the whole class, which I find it very good. At least a quiet environment for me to listen. When she prepares the questions for History paper, you will be shocked to find that what you read normally will not be asked. Instead, she likes to ask us about the “Sudut Maklumat” which we will all miss out.

Moral Education – Great, another SPM subject. All you have to do is to memorize the 36 definitions of good morale values and put them to good use in the questions asked. We changed a total of 4 teachers for this subject. Teaching and learning Moral does not require any specialty to know it well, but the interaction between teacher and students is important for this subject. I wouldn’t say that the subject is much different from primary, is just that the language has just changed from Chinese to Malay. We are definitely exposed to good morale values to be educated for the better.

Miss Jaslyn Khor Wei Ling, which I probably have to confess is one of the prettier teachers in this school. She uses a microphone to teach us, which I find it quite amusing, as she has a small voice also. She has fashionable clothes that she wears it to school and a current hair style. She teaches me Moral Education for 3 months only, and I would say that she really bond well with her students.

Now, this is a tribute to a few of my teacher who have taught me for the past year and will be transferring to another school to another state next year. I will definitely miss them as we shared a year together as a teacher-student relationship.

Madam Yeoh Pheng Geok, used to be “Miss Yeoh” but she is married happily and will be transferring to PJ (if I’m not mistaken) next year. It was a shock to see her being transferred but what could I do? Write a letter to the Principal? lol. She is a devoted and dedicated Christian which I was exposed a lot to Christianity because of her. She taught me a lot and I definitely thank God for her utmost help throughout the year. She is kind and she NEVERS speaks Chinese in my class last year in 3TA5. “I promise the Principal that I would not speak other language other than English!” said Miss Yeoh. At last, I heard her taking Chinese at the last day of school. Thank God! I thought she was unable to speak one Chinese word… haha.

Here’s wishing her all the best in her teaching and happy marriage days…

Madam Yong Pek Ying was my Mathematics teacher when I was in Form 2. I could not find her (which is SAD!) at the last day of school to take a picture with her. Too bad but I remember that she is very adorable and she teaches pretty well. I enjoy being in her class as it was fun yet interesting.

Here’s wishing her all the best too in the future.

Teaches, who have taught me in different years on different occasions, thank you all so much for your endless dedication to educate everyone of us. It must be tough but I believe that everything you do to help us, will bear fruits in the end.

Thank you ,teachers!

Part 3 will be coming to share with you my Gurney outing with my friends later that day. Stay tuned!

21
Nov
09

20 November 2009 (Part 1-In School)

(Allow me to make some corrections for leaving out some of my friends)

This date is the last day I went to school as a Fourth Former with my friends. The post will be quite long so I decided to spilt it into two parts. It’s funny because I don’t really think that it’s the ending of the year, I just feel that there is more to come for us to endure and enjoy. The “Honeymoon Year” is finally over, and let me tell you, it ain’t no Honeymoon Year at all.

Form 4 has many goods and bads. My results are not outstanding like during Form 1, neither it’s not devastating like during Form 2, but to fall in the middle always makes me feel like I can do better. I definitely have more room to improve. I took my camera with PERMISSION, to capture my finest moments with my class 4SA3.

To be honest, 4SA3 was not the “perfect” class I imagined. The back are noisy and boisterous as usual… The both sides are damn hardworking and quiet… The front talks more to each other and to the teachers… Since I’ve posted most of the pictures in Facebook, I still decided to let the non-Facebook users to get an inside on what is in my class… You may see some pictures that are uploaded in Facebook too.

Every morning, when the sun has not risen, I will be standing on this spot to wait for my friend, Shaun JaKens, since we practice carpooling every day to and forth from school. We are protecting the environment, by carpooling. Just wish that more people can emulate from us. XD Anyways, I want to this chance to thank Shaun for his help throughout the year…

Shaun “JaKens” and I share almost the same passion, that is to sing, to write and to watch America’s Next Top Model (obviously). He is very outspoken and dares to make a statement in public, which I admire him for that. I have never been able to be so bold in front of people. He will be representing Malaysia to Singapore for an interact camp, after he was selected from a dozen of hopefuls.

Next, when I reach school, sometimes I will go straight up to my classroom, situated on the 3rd floor, or go to the Communication Broadcast Room for duty. Our main job is to play some music in the morning like the radio, and to make important announcements during school hours. One of the main highlight I like about this job, is to host the assembly. The feeling on stage is overwhelming. (ps: I like the attention too.)

 

The equipments used for broadcasting. It smells weird in the Broadcast room because it’ used to very stuffy. We cleaned up a bit and it improved just a bit.

This is one of the more active DJ, Wayne Lim (or chien ming) in our Club. He is our Vice President of the club and he loves to talk junk and rubbish through the microphone every single day. You can’t deny, he has some talent to think on his own feet without depending on any scripts. He has a sense of humour but has a terrible voice for singing. He can rap, he can act gay, he can dance( not really), but DO NOT go near him when he is singing. You should be thankful that your spectacles are not broken…

My other friends and colleagues from the club. Zonghan (The talented singer), Chun Kit (The Music Buzz-Ask him anything about entertainment), Marcus (President) and Wooi Keat (Good friend), taken in the Broadcast room. Zonghan always bullies me in class, but at least I got some attention from the back. I met Chun Kit during Form 2 and has been his friend for 2 years already, though in separate classes. I know Marcus in Form 2, but I think he changed for better now in Form 4, which is a good thing. Wooi Keat is one of my good friend from Form 2 onwards, and has been the way now.

When 7:30 in the morning arrives, we will all head back to our respective classes. Since today is the last day, the teachers are not teaching anymore. So we were quite free to do our own things, but not too noisy. Boys will be boys, how can they do something without making noises? Here are some pictures taken with my friends.

Left Picture: I’m posing with Alvin (left) and Edmund (right). Alvin looks so jubilant, wonder who is thinking of? Edmund finally flashes a smile on his face after acting so cool for so long… Both of them are my primary schoolmates and friends for many years… I think we have been friends for 7 years already.

Right Picture: I’m posing with Vincent (left) and Sparrow (right). These two are probably my closest friends in class and we talked a lot. I bug them a lot, I know. Chee Yang “Vincent” is quite sarcastic at times, but don’t underestimate this guy as he can beat you down with his academic results. I know, I’ve been beaten twice. Yi Jian “Sparrow” is a dedicated monitor who fulfills his responsibly well than others. He has a sense of humour and has been courteous and patient throughout the year.

TIME TO BE VAIN, PEOPLE!

Me posing with Zonghan (top) and Kah Beng (bottom). Zonghan has been quite the chatterbox in the box but with good English. Though he has a naughty side, he is very intelligent in his academic results. Kah Beng, on the other hand, is also palyful but may get a little emotional when he gets up from the wrong side of the bed. The two of them are friendly to me and they will remain in my memories. (sounds cheesy)

Me posing with Sean (eyes closed!), Kevin and Chang Sheng. Sean is one of the playful boys in the class but has remain “clean” due to his Christianity background. I never got a chance to talk to Kevin up close but I know that his English is super good. He does not like to smile… Chang Sheng likes to be goofy around the class with his dirty yet funny jokes. He can be very funny but sometimes, I dread his endless jokes in class.

 

Me posing with Cheng Chun Keat, Yeap Chun Keat, H’ng Lead Kert and Sky Teh. These are the more talented friends in the class. They are talented in different ways. Both Chun Keat are powerful in Chinese, Lead Kert is strong in his academic results and Sky is very active in Prefect and Cadet Police. I previously team up with both Chun Keat and Lead Kert in our inter-class debate to represent our class.

 

Me posing with Lloyd and Kooi Jin. It’s very hard to find Lloyd to smile in front of the camera, so I feel privileged to be in the same picture with him smiling. Lloyd is vocal and you can find him in a sea of people with his voice. Don’t think that his petite figure will be timid, for he has a big voice to shout without cracking. Kooi Jin can be a bit hostile if you catch him on the wrong day… A little bit crazy but quite nice to talk to him… He is also my “boss” that checks my secretary job as he is the president of the GERKO team. scary

One of my favourite pictures of the day. Me posing with Kah Beng, Kevin, Chang Sheng, Zonghan and Chun Keat. I swear if I have siblings like them above, I probably will not be here writing this post for y’all because I will DIED in the chaotic house. These guys are fun but I will not join them for too long because all the cheekiness is just CRAZY for me to handle.

Me posing with Khoon Hong, Jien Wei, Bi Jie and Yi Han, the more hardworking and silent predators in my class. They are very clever and Jien Wei has been the top in our class for four consecutive times… Once smart, always smart. Yi Han has probably the nicest, most neat handwriting I ever saw in my class. Both Khoon Hong and Bi Jie are the high authorities of the Librarians.

Me posing with Victor, Khoon Hong and Dominic. Victor is an Michael Jackson fan and is constantly imitating his vocal hiccups and dance moves, which are not necessarily on the note at times. He loves to imitate teachers also. Khoon Hong is the President of the Librarian while Dominic is part of the crazy boys in the class.

Next, friends from my debate team:

Ok, why do you have to go to Beijing, China to visit the Bird Nest Stadium when you can find just one on Chin Chern’s head? The prefect has a determination in everything he does, from studies to debates. He always keeps his hard exterior on the outside which is quite funny during debate. Kai Deng, the best speaker, never fails to be on top of everyone in debate. He definitely has a talent in this area and I hope he will continue to grow in debate. Khai Hean, the cutie panda-eyed, has a sense of humour which I think is cute. He is carefree but sometimes can be a bit serious.

Next, Christian friends of mine:

Desmond, Sean and Melvin. In conclusion, these people are very eager to spread His words around the school. Desmond was my ex-classmate in 3TA5, while Sean is my classmate now in 4SA3, and Melvin has never been in the same class with me before. lol. These people are good Samaritans and I am very happy to meet with them and to learn more each other and about Christianity.

Some more some more:

Me posing with Chee Jui, friend for 7 year plus and still growing. His curly hair is his trademark since young and has always been helpful to everyone. Don’t mess with him, for he is a Taekwondo Red Belt-er. lol

Lead Kert is probably one of my good friend in this class in the beginning of the year and still are (mind you a) because I still don’t know a lot of them. He is very helpful and I bug him a lot too. He never gets angry under tense situation and I really admire him for that. And, being a prefect doesn’t make him so snobby either. He still remains his friendly composure while still able to control the discipline of the school. He sits just behind me and I know him since Form 3.

Me posing with Chang Sheng, the crazy, playful friend in my class.

Me posing with Kah Beng, the emotional and whacky monitor of 4SA3.

 

Me posing with Dickson, one of the playful guys from the back, and his big buggy eyes as his trademark. He also has a girlfriend of the same age. Love defines everything, huh?

凯祥与麒凯,山林在远方

Me posing with Kee Khai, the very good man whom I never been in the same class with him. He always keeps his cool composure as we tease him with somebody. Come to think of that, I feel quite bad for him for teasing him so much. Maybe I should cut down on that, eh?

What will happen when Brandon meets with Brendon? Nothing happens! haha. He is my ex-classmate during Form 1 and he has a louder, bigger voice than me.

Me posing with Jason Ch’ng, a primary schoolmate, who also has a girlfriend of the same age.

Me posing with Cheng Chun Keat, the Chinese pro in our class. (ps: He loves to bully me)

Me posing with Kuanny Goh Chee Tatt with his I-don’t-know-what pose…

Me posing with B-Boy “Ilky” Tan Han Boon, who is also one of the playful boys in the class.

Me posing with Alaric, my primary school mate, who has a brain for everything and a scout too.

Me posing with Zhi Cheng, another ex-classmate of mine during Form 3. At first, I thought he would be one of the snobby prefects but after getting to know him better, he definitely has a soft side and is constantly joking in our class. He is also one of the prefects that doesn’t appear to be arrogant, which is a good thing.

Me posing with my ex-classmates of mine during Form 2, Chee Yong and Eric. Both of them are loud, opinionative but they are also friendly and courteous. Chee Yong is more sarcastic in his way of speaking. He aims to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia, which we will see in the future whether he succeeds of not. Eric had me confused in the first impression. I also thought he would be a haughty prefect and a rich ass guy too. That is why you have to talk to people to learn the real them because you can never judge a book by its cover.

Chao Dun is one of my friends I met during Malay tuition, the famous Lee Choo Hock tuition centre. He always jokes around with everybody, including the tuition teacher.

Well, that’s it, fellow readers for Part 1 of my last day in Chung Ling as a Fourth Former. You can check more of my pictures in Facebook (if you have an account, of course!) or you can wait for the next post to come. I will be posting pictures of me with my teachers and a little review of them. (not criticizing)

Till then, peace out and God bless!

18
Nov
09

SPM

Hey, fellow readers! I’m back after a short hiatus due to my preparation for my final examination. It was a lot of pressure but it’s finally over. I just have to sit for my English Paper 1 before we can celebrate. I probably will be taking my digital camera to take pictures with my friends.

SPM is here…I wonder how will I feel if I’m the taking the examination now? Never mind, my doubt will be answered next year… I don’t know how will I freak out? haha…

I am updating my blog more frequently now… Things I want to do during the holidays (hopefully!):

  • Learn more about God
  • Write half of my novel, The Awaken
  • Write the graduation song for my school
  • Write my songs for my imaginary album, Emotional
  • Revise Form 5 materials

I hope I can do all these things during the holidays… But, all work and no play makes Bra-n-Don (That’s right, that’s my pen name!) a dull boy, I’m going to hang out with my friends in Gurney and have fun before the holidays end…

Till then, I will be updating my review on America’s Next Top Model Cycle 13 girls soon… Ciao!

21
Jul
09

Out of Randomness… again!

I’m going cuckoo, once again! People find me changing, in terms of personality. Even my teacher kept asking about my change in emotions. She said I am “emotionally-bounded”. She said, I don’t look cheerful and happy-go-lucky like I did during my Form 3 times.

Debate! Debate has been bugging me… I grow fond of it one day, then despise it another day, then like it again! In fact, debate is one of the competitions that really pisses me a lot! Though debate may not be my cup of tea, but I still have to represent my class for the inter-class debate competition. I want to show that “SOMEONE” that I can debate, ok? I have that in my blood, still!

Pregnancy! I am such a busybody. People pregnant also want to care ah? (rotten English!) My Biology teacher got pregnant, now my Modern Mathematics teacher is getting pregnant also for about 3 months already. Wakakakaka. It’s good to have some fun, but sometimes pregnant teachers can be a bit emotional sometimes… (mood swings), then will be absent for a few days… (medical checkup!) aduh…

Studies! Haiz, time to study again?! Many people are striving harder to get better results. For those who did miserably (like me!), they will have to work harder to make it up for last time. I will also make sure that my results will not be the same as the ones who urm… well, let us just say, don’t expect the unexpected coming… cause it may… wakakaka.

I’ll be stopping here la…

19
Jul
09

Out of Randomness

Just as you thought that my Physics teacher would be better teaching at pressure, then he went around stirring our concepts. I don’t blame him, but please don’t confuse us as a student. A teacher’s responsibility is to teach students well, not perplexing us.

I pray to you, Lord, that you may bless each and every one of us in 4SA3, that we may understand the various concepts of Physics. I pray to you, Lord, that you may bless my Physics teacher to teach us diligently and will have a good time with us, teaching us Physics.

Some say that Form 4 is a honeymoon year, I say that Form 4 is an excruciating year, for real. That idea is totally absurd for people to say that Form 4 is a honeymoon year. A lot of people of say that Physics is a subject that is fun, because you practically don’t have to memorize things as much as in Biology. I have to agree with that.

I pray to you, Lord, that you may bless the students of Form 4 to experience something better than this, something that is more fun than what we are going through now. Shed light upon us that may awaken us, that these knowledge are for our future.

Friends are getting uglier…They talk behind your back. They despise you, they are prejudice towards you, they no longer talk to you. Complicated relationships, loving this girl, loving that boy… Are these the lives of the future generations? Will we be seeing early marriage?

I pray to you, Lord, that you can give us determination and faith to live our lives as teenagers, to live our lives as we break through against all odds.

25
Jun
09

辩论心得

陈庆正   吴南财

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我们从没想过,这六位好朋友,能够成为一队出色的辩论队伍。我们从没想过,这队黑马,能成为全槟的辩论冠军。然而,背后还有一些不愉快的事情发生了,但我们六人还一定会团结一起,在模拟赛在一鸣惊人,让所有人知道,我们还是行的。

辩论给我们留下了许多许多美好的回忆,从我们中三的六人组合到今天的组合,我们确实学了不少。在学习生涯中,我们从来没有体会过真正团体精神的力量。那份同一条心的力量确实是无比的。

人际关系是一门学问,一个孩子无论多么优秀,他还是要面对别人,要学会怎么和人相处,怎么处事圆滑,这些都得要慢慢参透。辩论学习到团队精神,交多一些朋友,这都是成长的经历。老实说,我们的成长环境是比较受保护的,所以我们所经历的难免不同。我们须学会多走出去,看更多东西,体会出更多心得,待人处事学会更有弹性,在领导方面也要去认识,这对我们都有帮助。

友谊为第一

每当一想起辩论,脑里第一个想的东西,必定是“朋友”。辩论中,最美好的时刻,就是我们这几个朋友,坐在一起讨论,一起绞尽脑汁,一起玩乐,一起吃东西,一起上台的时刻。我们从来没有想过要在辩论场中夺冠,然而最后我们却无意中做到了。辩论让我们知道了更多的时事,增广了我我们的见闻,让我们的头脑比以前灵敏得多,让我们体会合作的美丽,而它的收获,就是那无比的快乐。而我们总觉得,参加辩论最大的价值及高潮点仍在于辩手们一起讨论与快乐的时光。

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往往过程都比结果来得更深刻,更值得收藏。所以,我们能够在辩论之外,收获不同的体验和道理。我们的合作和团结常常让大家很钦佩,交朋友就是要这样,一条心,我们就是这样,很自然很单纯,也没什么心机。但另一方面,我们在思想行为上的稳重度还不够,表现在生活中就譬如:无缘无故会玩得很疯狂,或是有一些很难让人接受的小动作和小想法。在这方面我们承认要学会成长,要加多一点理性、稳重、大体在生活中,但做人不可以太世故,太计较或太有心计,我们还要懂得取舍。

重组时刻

重组的那段过程,对我们其他四个,的确可谓是一个艰难的过程。尤其是那两位候补(杨凯祥与黄俊扬),他们的心里又是多么的气愤和伤心,而有的老师还觉得他们犹如我们组里的寄生虫,这的确伤了他们的心。这也是当时为何我们一直希望老师不要重组的原因。我们当时只是希望老师能给我们一个进步的机会,让我们还能上台吸取经验,毕竟我们明年还会参与。我们的导师,吴南财,时常告诉我们要以平常心看待。开始心里虽然会觉得有点可惜,但最后还是会觉得自己让的一大步不是白费的。因为要是当时若我们坚持不重组的话,可能早就进不了全国赛了。重组的这段过程,可说是一个很特别的经历吧。

我们希望可以在挣扎的过程中收获一些刻骨铭心的道理。我们当初的坚持和愤怒只有我们可以了解,但或许我们没有察觉,这里头“捱义气”的成分比较多,我们把所谓的友谊放得很大,才会坚持要原班人马。南财说,没有人觉得那两位候补是寄生虫,每个人都有他的角色,只是站在比赛竞争的立场,必然就会有人比较弱有人较强,有人比较适合有人要被取舍这样而已。派对参赛讲求的是大局,是代表钟灵的队伍。生命就是要学会平常心,有时要学着接受,生命不是每一次都能如愿以偿,有时候失去也是另一种收获。或许,放下了执着,眼前的路也相对的宽阔。我们觉得最后我们都能退一步,就是要能够让对方有更好的出路。无论我们友谊有多重,我们深深体会到我们还是要顾虑大局。

难得的经验,全国赛

在全国赛中,我们看见了各州的代表,他们对辩论又是多么的积极。他们从初中一就开始培养人才,长年累月的磨练,让他们在辩论场上立于不败之地。我们要长期专业的训练,对我们对整个大环境来说,都有很多要跨越的,而且一旦我们走上了这条路,每个人的心态很快就会不同,到时候也许我们的得失心会变得更重,因为既然付出了,期望就相对高很多,赢不了的话我们很难过自己那一关。我们肯定也不会像今天那么快乐,得到那么多成长的感受。

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谢谢您,南财

而不管是否重组过,我们都确实学了不少。能够有那份缘份在人生中参与辩论,对我们来说已算是一种福了。也希望我们这几个明年还能有机会同一组。辩论的确给我们在学习生涯中洒下了不少美丽、精彩的彩花。

再次的感恩你这一直以来给我们的帮助。永不会忘记您!

23
Jun
09

Exam Marathon

Gosh, everybody seems to be working so hard after the miserable test. I tried to maintain my excellent result last test, but I found myself to be not improving… I hate myself for not pushing the best I can. I really don’t want to  disappoint people, especially the closed one.

I am very intimidated by people who are genius, and there a whole lot of students that really frightened me with that insane results. I am not confident at myself all the time, and the outcome of this exam really spank me hard on the face again.

The one subject that I was really really disappointed of was my English. I had a panic attack and was close to tears when I received my essay paper. Out of 35, I only got 27. I was literally shocked as some of those whose English wasn’t really good, scored higher than me… I may felt that I got a little too cocky, but it was a wake up call indeed. I had a little disadvantage because I don’t use many beautiful phrases in my essay. I got so furious that 2 students got 32 out of 35. THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY MARK, DAMN IT!

I did improve though, but it was not enough to compensate the deteriorating average mark of mine. One was really happy was my Chemistry. I love this subject so much, that I put in more effort in studying it, and it really paid off with a whooping 90 mark. It may not be the highest in the class, but I was pleased with myself.

I really don’t want to talk about my results, had an emotional shutdown these few days. I cried a lot… The exam papers were indeed hard for me this time around. Now, I am not at the top of the pack again… Ugh! Freaking confused and lost…

21
Jun
09

Mad Silence

(I will NOT delete this post!)

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History will not be repeated… It is all over now…

No smiles, will you see… from this team… Even if we struggle to get it together, we know what the outcome would be…

These pictures were painted black and white to symbolize the end of this team…

All the angst inside of us was overshadowed with pride and glory, no one but us knew what happened…

All these months, is it going to end with our heads hanging low?

The six of us have gone our separate ways:

2 of us are being ditched to the extreme, our effort has gone unnoticed, but being judged as the extras

2 of us are struggling to get hold of their places in the team, but always being pushed down

2 of us are tasting victory and glory, have they forgotten the times with us?

I remembered the times that we laughed together, shared our thoughts together, looked through information together, thought together, shared our laughter together, will all of these drift away with time? Will this team meet the end of the road?

We know we are not the best, but at least we gave our best… Do you all not see that?

We know we have no experience, is that that reason you rejected us?

We know our team is imbalance in techniques, but will you give us a chance?

We know we have our own way to win, but do you see that?

We just hope to have fun together as a team, but all of you just want to win…

The anxiety of waiting the results together as a team, the excitement we have during debate, the passion we have together, the friendship we have as a team, will all of these be gone with the wind?

Mad Silence… It describes how angry we are inside of us, but it has been silenced out…

We agree to disintegrate this team in conditions, but what do we get at the end?

We agree to hold on to this team firmly, but in the end…

We agree not to piss anyone off, but is that all we get in return?

We have so much to say, we often sit in one corner during discussion while only one voice out their opinions on the motion, is this called a team?

We go unnoticed during discussion, do you see that?

(I will NOT delete this post!)

I have my freedom to write this, and don’t you judge me just because I don’t contribute as much as the others in the team.

If you want to spread the words, go ahead! I will not back off. I am pissed off at somebody, who can suck people’s asses just to please them…

As much as I want to spank them, I continue to pray to God to control myself. The pen is mightier than the sword.

God bless.

15
Jun
09

sleeping…

When we are tired, we rest. But, how often do we get captured while sleeping? We surely want to look good at different occasions, but sleeping is one occasion we can’t look good…

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Surely, the one on the right had the ugliest picture while sleeping among these three pictures…

Picture #1, he sure has a nest…

Picture #2, doing acrobatics in your dreams?

Picture #3, seeing food ahead of you?

When we feel that we are stressed, we sleep. Many argue that sleeping takes away our precious time, but sleeping is definitely better than wasting the time in front of the computer.

So, make sure you keep your best look while sleeping, because it is easy, breezy and charming…

31
May
09

Exam is Finally Over!

Like my friend says, freedom from the exam is like tasting honey, sweet!

I am really not confident for this exam, as i did not perform my best to answer the questions… The standard between Form 3 and Form 4 is completely different when compared. Plus, the questions are harder….

I’m praying hard not to fail any subjects.