Exam Marathon

23 Jun

Gosh, everybody seems to be working so hard after the miserable test. I tried to maintain my excellent result last test, but I found myself to be not improving… I hate myself for not pushing the best I can. I really don’t want to  disappoint people, especially the closed one.

I am very intimidated by people who are genius, and there a whole lot of students that really frightened me with that insane results. I am not confident at myself all the time, and the outcome of this exam really spank me hard on the face again.

The one subject that I was really really disappointed of was my English. I had a panic attack and was close to tears when I received my essay paper. Out of 35, I only got 27. I was literally shocked as some of those whose English wasn’t really good, scored higher than me… I may felt that I got a little too cocky, but it was a wake up call indeed. I had a little disadvantage because I don’t use many beautiful phrases in my essay. I got so furious that 2 students got 32 out of 35. THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY MARK, DAMN IT!

I did improve though, but it was not enough to compensate the deteriorating average mark of mine. One was really happy was my Chemistry. I love this subject so much, that I put in more effort in studying it, and it really paid off with a whooping 90 mark. It may not be the highest in the class, but I was pleased with myself.

I really don’t want to talk about my results, had an emotional shutdown these few days. I cried a lot… The exam papers were indeed hard for me this time around. Now, I am not at the top of the pack again… Ugh! Freaking confused and lost…


One Response to “Exam Marathon”

  1. dnomsed June 27, 2009 at 5:41 pm #


    You know I feel sad whenever I see you depressed over yourself..

    Just know that someone always loves you… no matter you are clever or not..

    Know that… even if you get good marks.. your life might not be any better 🙂

    My marks are not very good for me either. I am not satisfied. But I am satisfied with myself.. I know.. that I need to accept it. And I ask for strength each day to go on, living a HOLY life..

    Soory if my comment did not help.
    But if it does, please. Be still. And just know that He isd God! He controls all!

    God bless :):):):):):)

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