What’s the most dreadful word?

15 Jul

Hey, people! Yours truly is back with a brand new post…. and his attempt to revive his oh-so-dead blog….

Crap, I guess God has been hinting to constantly update my blog but I couldn’t allocate any time, so I think He decided to drop the bomb on me today…

No no,,,, not the “f” bomb, mind you…

It’s the message from 15888… What’s that you say?  Before I reveal to you, let me be a little long-winded with the whole dreaful process…

As you know, I am the Fifth Former, currently studying in Chung Ling High School, and being one of them means that I would have a 50/50 chance to get selected into National Service or PLKNm as they say…

What’s National Service? It’s a very good place for us to train physically and to truly understand the meaning of “1Malaysia”  with 3 different main races, all joined into one centre to have fun….

Did I type as if I enjoy the whole process?

Well, being nervous I was, I immediately sent a message to 1588, to check whether I’ve been seleceted for this camp…. Well turns out…

TANIAH! ANDA TELAH DIPILIH UNTUK…

I seriously thought I could faint at that moment… Whatsoever… I waited for 45 minutes just to get this message sent back to me…. Gosh, this should be the only time that I wished that people could say “MINTA MAAF” to me…

Not to mock anyone or anything… but I guess that being a more artistic person (selling yourself, Brandon?), I don’t think I really fit into this whole physical process…. I’m started to have nightmares and all those concepts about how dreadful this camp could turn out… And and… the food? I’m concerned about the food… What if they give me so little to eat that I ended up crying in bed… Maybe this should be the time that “Glee” plays the role…. I can sing freely with background music coming out from nowhere…

Hah… fine… enough of me venting out my anger…. I think I should really accept what has been given to me, and to just face it…. No matter how long I want to delay this process, it can still haunt me…. argh…..

Angels Without Wings

22 Feb

This song is originally written by my good friend, Chin Chern, titled “Angels Without Wings (Espionage)” and I immediately fell in love with his song. He is so kind to let me “use” his song, and I made it into my own version.

I remained the melody of the verse, but then I changed the chorus. This song tells people that when you think you feel lonely, there is always an angel without wings that is by your side. You are not alone… do you have an angel beside you? Well, I know I do! 🙂

When the holidays are over…

22 Feb

This means that the exams are imminent for schooling children! I guess many of you are claiming that you have no study for the upcoming test, but BOOMZ, when the results are out, many of your results are outstanding and eye-opening!

This will probably be the last post of my blog until the tests are over! And hopefully (fingers crossed!) that I can not be tempted by the power of this computer, to make me online for the whole day until I cannot study! Ok, we all need to study right? I’m just being honest to tell you that everybody is studying ok?

Peace out, people! And remember, good luck!

Sorry

21 Feb

This is my second song played on the piano. I actually compile all my written song into albums, but of course it’s not going to be released like the real ones in the market. I don’t play the songs with any scores, I just have the melody in my mind, so the more i practice, the more I’m familiar with my own song.

I composed this song when I was hurt by one of my friends. You know, I trusted him as my good friend, but the favour I got in return was very disappointing. Grow an extra eye to help judge what kind of friends you are hanging out with.

Hope you guys enjoy this song. 🙂

CrossRoads

21 Feb

Occasionally when a melody struck in my mind, I will probably hum it out and write the lyrics. I never played my songs on the piano, until my good friend, Chin Chern, inspired me to play the melody on the piano. He writes soothing music that I really like a lot.

This song, CrossRoads, is written because I feel that being a teenger, we are bound to meet up with crossroads that we need to decide. Just like the poem “The Road Not Taken”, we need to choose only one of the many roads, and we must choose that road wisely, as it will determine your future. This song is purely my composition, so I hope you guys like the song. The chords are very simple, it revolves around the F major key.

Enjoy, people!

Gurney Outing

19 Feb

Finally I am out of the house… This year’s Chinese New Year is so scorching hot that I need to switch on my air-conditioner every single night. I can’t stand the heat and I certainly don’t work well under extreme heat. I’m out with the usual gang, plus some additional guests.

Let me list out: Shaun, Jayden, Chin Chern, Sparrow, Autumn, Chee Yang, Edmund, Jeremy, Sky and Yan Kai. Did I miss out anyone? Hopefully I did not…

We are vaining in the car… and obviously I’m still not convinced that I look younger with spectacles… blek >.<

First of all… no one is feeling the New Year mood, as I am practically the only one who was wearing red… Where’s the spirit, you guys? We went to Gurney to have a little reunion with our ex-Geograrphy teacher, Miss Yeap Yee Pei. She is a very caring teacher, who carries a sense of humour in the class. Too bad she got transferred to Terranganu… T.T

You probably have seen her before, because I shot with her during a debate competition in Batu Pahat.. 🙂

We had lunch at Swensen… and guess what? I left early to head to Sake Sushi to have a little chit chat with two of my good friends or shall I say couples?

Mr and Mrs Orange! lol…

The girl on the left is Lee May and the one on the right is Zhi Cheng… They are really sweet and the way they mingle with each other during lunch was quite fun to watch. Hey, this is my first time being a lamp post but since they don’t mind, so I might as well sit with them to talk.

This picture with Lee May is probably the first time I’m taking this shot with a girl. No jokes. I never got so close to a girl before to take pictures, because I think I’m shy… T.T lame… Don’t you think they are so caring and loving with each other, huh?

SURPRISE, LEE MAY! I saved the picture you shared with me… wakakax

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CUTE! Don’t kill your brother, Lee May. 😀

We watched “Percy Jackson and The Lighting Thief” and I got to say that being a slight fan of Greek mythology actually pays off when you watch this movie. Though the plot is a bit predictable, but I got to say that it’s still a good movie to watch, worthwhile. I thought the lead male actor looked like Zac Efron and the lead female actor look Selena Gomez…

Anyways, thanks guys so much for making this Gurney outing so fun to be… 🙂 Love you all!

God bless and peace out.

A Month after the Tragedy

15 Feb

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I guess there is no remedy or medicine for our pain to be subsided even if they say “Time is our best medicine”, we as Chung Ling students will not be able to erase the painful memory of our friends who have been with the Lord on 17 January 2010. I’m not here to put my finger on which party should be responsible in this tragedy. The parents of the victims chose to let this tragedy be left behind, leaving only their memories with the victims, why we (the outsiders) should be pinpointing on who is to be responsible?

I remember that I first heard the news through Facebook, and I thought it was a prank at first because I know that fellow Chung Ling students are strong, physically, mentally, so I assume that people are just spreading out rumours. But then I got a message from one of my friends and he told me that one of my friends Jason Ch’ng, has been found, dead. I was lost of words and tears started to come out, so I started to refresh my Facebook every 30 minutes to receive any latest updates.

The undercurrent has mercilessly sucked the eighteen fragile lives into the frigid waters of Macellum Street. Who would ever imagine that such tragedy would happen? Till then, 2 bodies were found and those bodies were the only ones who wore the life jackets. Ironically speaking, the life jackets which resembles life, has been the cause of their death.

I was unable to be at the scene due to transport problem, but I made contact with people from the scene. Of course I turned on the TV for news too but to no avail. The four who are missing were still nowhere to be found, and the rescue team had to be resume their operation next thing in the morning.

It was an emotional struggle for both of their families and their friends. For once, Chung Ling was quiet when I Reached school on Monday. No one talked, no one discussed about anything. Everyone was wondering the same thing? Can anyone live to tell the tale? We were hoping for some great news, but all in return, we learned that the 4 who were missing were all found. Cold, Lifeless, Frigid, Numb….

In just one day, we have lost the lives of one teacher and five of our beloved friends. Some may not know them, but I believe the entire school are experience an emotional torn in them. No one was in the mood for anything, even the teachers had tears in their eyes. Who would ever thought that we would be experiencing death of friends at our last year in school. Those victims had their graduation pictures, had dreams that they want to be successful, had promises to their parents but in the end, we were all greeted by their lifeless faces, lying down on their wooden bed, segregated by a piece of glass.

Never will we hear their voices, never will we hear them calling us, never will we have the chance to work with them, never will we have an outing together with them, but most of all the MEMORIES we have with them will be forever etched in our minds.

Have you ever blame God for taking the lives of 6 people who have talents, leadership, cheekiness, humour, determination and many other criteria that make a better person? Perhaps if we stop and think for a while, maybe God is seeing that we are ignoring our friends day by day, so maybe He should do something to give us a warning. But why 6?

Yes we may have cried, those tears are gone… But it doesn’t mean that it ends here. We still love them, right? We can still move on and be strong even if they are beside us. Remember, they are somewhere up there blessing us, and laughing at us probably.

This is a caricature drawn by my friend, Chin Chern. Brendon is the second boy from left, and he had talent in debating, probably more than me, and he is indeed a diamond in the rough. He was planned to be representing our school for the debate competition, but I guess he could not make it… Well, we will win the competition for you, Brendon! Don’t worry!

No words can describe our pain… I will probably upload a video on a song I wrote for them “They Will Be Loved” once I get the chords right… And yes, they will be loved and remembered, rest assured.

God bless, my fellow readers!

Update

4 Feb

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I just realized that I haven’t update my blog for a long time… woots… The picture above is taken from Chien Ming, and he is an aspiring amateur photographer, but is currently improving his skills. I am always his model whenever he brings his baby to school…

It’s going to be a total random-ness in the post…

First of all, thanks to Lee Choo Hock, most of my female friends are addressing me as Shannon Yeoh! Great job, Mr Lee. So he was actually calling Chanel to answer his question but he saw me who knew the answer, so he called Sha-ndon… then it became SHANNON! T.T But hey, the good thing is, I am talking to more female friends in MSN now… all because of Shannon… wakakakax…

I’m so afraid of SPM… T.T Don’t know how will I do. I want to do my best, but I am not sure if I can manage to stay on top for long…

I will probably blog more if there is anything interesting, but in the mean time, do study hard, my friends… 🙂

God bless!

Brendon, You Will Be Remembered

22 Jan

 

My first and last personal picture with Brendon Yeoh Yuen Khye.

Looking at the picture on the left, my original caption in my blog was "What happens when Brandon and Brendon meet? Nothing!" and it really made me feel regretful for putting this caption.

Most of us are getting more numb, we are learning to face the truth and reality, although we really hope that all of these won’t happened at all.

We attended Brendon’s funeral today in the morning, and it was crowded with students, as we expected. We first took the last glimpse of Brendon before the monks perform the ritual. It was the third day that Brendon’s body had been placed there, so I think most of us couldn’t recognize his face, as his face was deformed. I wish not to describe it as a respect. I wanted to cry but no tears came down. I think I was getting numb of all of these, not that I’m aloof, but the reality has sunk into me. Brendon can’t be with us anymore…

After the ritual, we as his friends came out clubs by clubs to pay respect and bow three times in front of his coffin. When the announcer announced "Debate Club" I stepped forward together with Wooi Keat, Chin Chern, Eric Tan, Kai Deng, Khai Hean, Miss Lim and Wei Huai. We gave our final testimonial to Brendon before bowing. Wooi Keat got really emotional when he shared, with the rest were holding back a lot. I promise my friend that I will stay strong, I will not cry in front of Brendon anymore.

When it was my turn to share, I said, "Brendon, I miss the days when there were two Bra/endon’s to create confusion among friends and teachers. We will always miss you." I teared up a little, but I couraged up myself. Brendon certainly did not want us to weep sadly anymore. We, the Debate Club members, told Brendon that he was an awesome debater who did not need any script to perform, which was commendable.

More clubs came to respect him and soon it was time for us to send Brendon for the last time. We walked for quite a long journey, and my skin got reddish, but I think it was worth it, to send my friend for the last time.
I could not afford to walk the whole journey, so we took the bus straight to Batu Gantung Cremotorium, and we were just in time before Brendon’s coffin being pushed into the machinery. Cameras flashed a lot. *clicks 100 times*.

Sorrow is a fruit; God does not allow it to grow on a branch that is too weak to bear it. There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm

WE, as a human being, cannot escape death. It’s just a matter of time when your destiny ends, to be with the Lord. I pray that all the victims can live happily above. Since Jason and Brendon are the members of the Apoms, they should be happy up there. In fact, all of them should be living happily.

God bless, everybody!

Rest In Peace, my Friends

18 Jan

Today, Chung Ling students, friends, relatives, family members, seniors, junior, teachers who have known Jason Ch’ng Wai Seong, Brendon Yeoh Yuen Khye, Goh Yi Zhang, and Mr Chin Aik Siang, shed their tears. I never experienced the death of any friends, and to first receive the news was shocking and doubtful at the same time.

Jason Ch’ng on the left, while Brendon Yeoh on the right…

It’s crazy… One moment you are talking to them, laughing and chatting away all those jokes, then the next day, you received the devastating news of the demise of your friends. We tend to not appreciate our friends while they are in our presence, but the moment we lost them, then we realized how we neglected our friends…

For those who don’t know, Jason Brendon and Yi Zhang were involved in the dragon boat accident which took their dear lives, and to be with the Lord. I feel that they are so young to just leave… I feel that they have so much to do… I feel that they have a bright future to walk towards, but it ended miserably.

It’s weird… To flip through the newspaper, seeing other victims that are not related, you don’t give a damn about them, or maybe you just pray a little prayer in your heart that they will be blessed. But this time, when I look at the newspaper, to see how Brendon’s mum cried, desperately asking his son to come back… that scene, was heartbreaking… To see how parents nurture us to become a filial son, are we not doing our duty by just leaving them?

Hearing Jason’s departure, I swore I wouldn’t want to hear anymore bad news… but God, you played me around… Instead, I heard two more devastating news, I’ve lost 3 of my friends… Though they may not be as close as some… but once a friend, will always remain as a friend…

I remember Jason, once a playful boy in primary school who caused a lot of trouble… but he was a smart boy, who excelled both in academic performance and co-curriculum activities. He loves to tease me during Form 4… He likes to fool around…

Brendon… Most of the teachers always get confused with both of us…We had the different spelling, but the pronunciation is exactly the same… He loved to tease me and sometimes I do get frustrated. But now, I wish he could come back and tease me how many times he want to…

LIFE IS SHORT

I really don’t want to attend their memorial service but it is a respect I must show…I hate seeing their lifeless and restless face, separated by a piece of wood, it makes me feel so bad…

Rest in Peace, my friends… You will be with the Lord and you will live your life as you wish!