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What’s the most dreadful word?

15 Jul

Hey, people! Yours truly is back with a brand new post…. and his attempt to revive his oh-so-dead blog….

Crap, I guess God has been hinting to constantly update my blog but I couldn’t allocate any time, so I think He decided to drop the bomb on me today…

No no,,,, not the “f” bomb, mind you…

It’s the message from 15888… What’s that you say?  Before I reveal to you, let me be a little long-winded with the whole dreaful process…

As you know, I am the Fifth Former, currently studying in Chung Ling High School, and being one of them means that I would have a 50/50 chance to get selected into National Service or PLKNm as they say…

What’s National Service? It’s a very good place for us to train physically and to truly understand the meaning of “1Malaysia”  with 3 different main races, all joined into one centre to have fun….

Did I type as if I enjoy the whole process?

Well, being nervous I was, I immediately sent a message to 1588, to check whether I’ve been seleceted for this camp…. Well turns out…


I seriously thought I could faint at that moment… Whatsoever… I waited for 45 minutes just to get this message sent back to me…. Gosh, this should be the only time that I wished that people could say “MINTA MAAF” to me…

Not to mock anyone or anything… but I guess that being a more artistic person (selling yourself, Brandon?), I don’t think I really fit into this whole physical process…. I’m started to have nightmares and all those concepts about how dreadful this camp could turn out… And and… the food? I’m concerned about the food… What if they give me so little to eat that I ended up crying in bed… Maybe this should be the time that “Glee” plays the role…. I can sing freely with background music coming out from nowhere…

Hah… fine… enough of me venting out my anger…. I think I should really accept what has been given to me, and to just face it…. No matter how long I want to delay this process, it can still haunt me…. argh…..


Angels Without Wings

22 Feb

This song is originally written by my good friend, Chin Chern, titled “Angels Without Wings (Espionage)” and I immediately fell in love with his song. He is so kind to let me “use” his song, and I made it into my own version.

I remained the melody of the verse, but then I changed the chorus. This song tells people that when you think you feel lonely, there is always an angel without wings that is by your side. You are not alone… do you have an angel beside you? Well, I know I do! 🙂

When the holidays are over…

22 Feb

This means that the exams are imminent for schooling children! I guess many of you are claiming that you have no study for the upcoming test, but BOOMZ, when the results are out, many of your results are outstanding and eye-opening!

This will probably be the last post of my blog until the tests are over! And hopefully (fingers crossed!) that I can not be tempted by the power of this computer, to make me online for the whole day until I cannot study! Ok, we all need to study right? I’m just being honest to tell you that everybody is studying ok?

Peace out, people! And remember, good luck!

A Month after the Tragedy

15 Feb


I guess there is no remedy or medicine for our pain to be subsided even if they say “Time is our best medicine”, we as Chung Ling students will not be able to erase the painful memory of our friends who have been with the Lord on 17 January 2010. I’m not here to put my finger on which party should be responsible in this tragedy. The parents of the victims chose to let this tragedy be left behind, leaving only their memories with the victims, why we (the outsiders) should be pinpointing on who is to be responsible?

I remember that I first heard the news through Facebook, and I thought it was a prank at first because I know that fellow Chung Ling students are strong, physically, mentally, so I assume that people are just spreading out rumours. But then I got a message from one of my friends and he told me that one of my friends Jason Ch’ng, has been found, dead. I was lost of words and tears started to come out, so I started to refresh my Facebook every 30 minutes to receive any latest updates.

The undercurrent has mercilessly sucked the eighteen fragile lives into the frigid waters of Macellum Street. Who would ever imagine that such tragedy would happen? Till then, 2 bodies were found and those bodies were the only ones who wore the life jackets. Ironically speaking, the life jackets which resembles life, has been the cause of their death.

I was unable to be at the scene due to transport problem, but I made contact with people from the scene. Of course I turned on the TV for news too but to no avail. The four who are missing were still nowhere to be found, and the rescue team had to be resume their operation next thing in the morning.

It was an emotional struggle for both of their families and their friends. For once, Chung Ling was quiet when I Reached school on Monday. No one talked, no one discussed about anything. Everyone was wondering the same thing? Can anyone live to tell the tale? We were hoping for some great news, but all in return, we learned that the 4 who were missing were all found. Cold, Lifeless, Frigid, Numb….

In just one day, we have lost the lives of one teacher and five of our beloved friends. Some may not know them, but I believe the entire school are experience an emotional torn in them. No one was in the mood for anything, even the teachers had tears in their eyes. Who would ever thought that we would be experiencing death of friends at our last year in school. Those victims had their graduation pictures, had dreams that they want to be successful, had promises to their parents but in the end, we were all greeted by their lifeless faces, lying down on their wooden bed, segregated by a piece of glass.

Never will we hear their voices, never will we hear them calling us, never will we have the chance to work with them, never will we have an outing together with them, but most of all the MEMORIES we have with them will be forever etched in our minds.

Have you ever blame God for taking the lives of 6 people who have talents, leadership, cheekiness, humour, determination and many other criteria that make a better person? Perhaps if we stop and think for a while, maybe God is seeing that we are ignoring our friends day by day, so maybe He should do something to give us a warning. But why 6?

Yes we may have cried, those tears are gone… But it doesn’t mean that it ends here. We still love them, right? We can still move on and be strong even if they are beside us. Remember, they are somewhere up there blessing us, and laughing at us probably.

This is a caricature drawn by my friend, Chin Chern. Brendon is the second boy from left, and he had talent in debating, probably more than me, and he is indeed a diamond in the rough. He was planned to be representing our school for the debate competition, but I guess he could not make it… Well, we will win the competition for you, Brendon! Don’t worry!

No words can describe our pain… I will probably upload a video on a song I wrote for them “They Will Be Loved” once I get the chords right… And yes, they will be loved and remembered, rest assured.

God bless, my fellow readers!

Brendon, You Will Be Remembered

22 Jan


My first and last personal picture with Brendon Yeoh Yuen Khye.

Looking at the picture on the left, my original caption in my blog was "What happens when Brandon and Brendon meet? Nothing!" and it really made me feel regretful for putting this caption.

Most of us are getting more numb, we are learning to face the truth and reality, although we really hope that all of these won’t happened at all.

We attended Brendon’s funeral today in the morning, and it was crowded with students, as we expected. We first took the last glimpse of Brendon before the monks perform the ritual. It was the third day that Brendon’s body had been placed there, so I think most of us couldn’t recognize his face, as his face was deformed. I wish not to describe it as a respect. I wanted to cry but no tears came down. I think I was getting numb of all of these, not that I’m aloof, but the reality has sunk into me. Brendon can’t be with us anymore…

After the ritual, we as his friends came out clubs by clubs to pay respect and bow three times in front of his coffin. When the announcer announced "Debate Club" I stepped forward together with Wooi Keat, Chin Chern, Eric Tan, Kai Deng, Khai Hean, Miss Lim and Wei Huai. We gave our final testimonial to Brendon before bowing. Wooi Keat got really emotional when he shared, with the rest were holding back a lot. I promise my friend that I will stay strong, I will not cry in front of Brendon anymore.

When it was my turn to share, I said, "Brendon, I miss the days when there were two Bra/endon’s to create confusion among friends and teachers. We will always miss you." I teared up a little, but I couraged up myself. Brendon certainly did not want us to weep sadly anymore. We, the Debate Club members, told Brendon that he was an awesome debater who did not need any script to perform, which was commendable.

More clubs came to respect him and soon it was time for us to send Brendon for the last time. We walked for quite a long journey, and my skin got reddish, but I think it was worth it, to send my friend for the last time.
I could not afford to walk the whole journey, so we took the bus straight to Batu Gantung Cremotorium, and we were just in time before Brendon’s coffin being pushed into the machinery. Cameras flashed a lot. *clicks 100 times*.

Sorrow is a fruit; God does not allow it to grow on a branch that is too weak to bear it. There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm

WE, as a human being, cannot escape death. It’s just a matter of time when your destiny ends, to be with the Lord. I pray that all the victims can live happily above. Since Jason and Brendon are the members of the Apoms, they should be happy up there. In fact, all of them should be living happily.

God bless, everybody!

Rest In Peace, my Friends

18 Jan

Today, Chung Ling students, friends, relatives, family members, seniors, junior, teachers who have known Jason Ch’ng Wai Seong, Brendon Yeoh Yuen Khye, Goh Yi Zhang, and Mr Chin Aik Siang, shed their tears. I never experienced the death of any friends, and to first receive the news was shocking and doubtful at the same time.

Jason Ch’ng on the left, while Brendon Yeoh on the right…

It’s crazy… One moment you are talking to them, laughing and chatting away all those jokes, then the next day, you received the devastating news of the demise of your friends. We tend to not appreciate our friends while they are in our presence, but the moment we lost them, then we realized how we neglected our friends…

For those who don’t know, Jason Brendon and Yi Zhang were involved in the dragon boat accident which took their dear lives, and to be with the Lord. I feel that they are so young to just leave… I feel that they have so much to do… I feel that they have a bright future to walk towards, but it ended miserably.

It’s weird… To flip through the newspaper, seeing other victims that are not related, you don’t give a damn about them, or maybe you just pray a little prayer in your heart that they will be blessed. But this time, when I look at the newspaper, to see how Brendon’s mum cried, desperately asking his son to come back… that scene, was heartbreaking… To see how parents nurture us to become a filial son, are we not doing our duty by just leaving them?

Hearing Jason’s departure, I swore I wouldn’t want to hear anymore bad news… but God, you played me around… Instead, I heard two more devastating news, I’ve lost 3 of my friends… Though they may not be as close as some… but once a friend, will always remain as a friend…

I remember Jason, once a playful boy in primary school who caused a lot of trouble… but he was a smart boy, who excelled both in academic performance and co-curriculum activities. He loves to tease me during Form 4… He likes to fool around…

Brendon… Most of the teachers always get confused with both of us…We had the different spelling, but the pronunciation is exactly the same… He loved to tease me and sometimes I do get frustrated. But now, I wish he could come back and tease me how many times he want to…


I really don’t want to attend their memorial service but it is a respect I must show…I hate seeing their lifeless and restless face, separated by a piece of wood, it makes me feel so bad…

Rest in Peace, my friends… You will be with the Lord and you will live your life as you wish!

Christmas Greetings!

25 Dec


Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you and to all of your family, fellow readers!

I’ve just received the letter from school about my school results. Ok, I’ve checked the Internet before then, I even check it every 1 hour just to check my overall position and to which class I was going to be in Form 5. I will be studying in 5SA2. Hopefully the teachers are experienced to teach me since it’s the last year and for preparation for the infamous SPM.

Speaking about SPM, I’m so stressed just to even think about it. I always wonder how will I perform during the exam which will be imminent in 11 months’ time. All the revision, all the homework, like it’s starting to build on me even early on this year 2010.

This year has been a crazy year for me. I was so depressed at many times, but I just have to call out to the Lord, even within a short, small prayer, I just pray that He can give me His strength onto me that with His guidance, I can still  walk through this year.

What I’m nervous about next year, is the teacher mainly. I don’t want to get the useless ones, or the senior teachers who takes everything for granted. SPM is quite important because it can determine your future. Most jobs requires you to have a legal distinction in SPM…

Let us do a recap on my 2009 life:-

One of the most memorable competition I entered was Debate. Here are a few links that are about Debate:-

Road To Finals

Road To Victory

Batu Pahat Debate Competition (Part 1)

Batu Pahat Debate Competition (Part 2)

Batu Pahat Debate Competition (Part 3)

Batu Pahat Debate Competition (Part 4)

Opinions about Debate

Debate Celebration

Personally, I think that debate has really bring out the competitive side in everyone on stage. Through I share little passion towards debate, I still think that entering this competition gives me an experience and memory that I will not forget with my friends. Debate may not be what I like the most, but at least it has given me something that money can’t buy. 🙂

2010 will be a very busy year for Fifth Formers, because we have to prepare for SPM and also the school exams.  I also got to handle my School Communication Group for half of the year before passing the baton the next batch of hopefuls. I also got to record the graduation song which eventually everyone will have a copy of the CD. I hope I have that chance to record the CD…

I have met quite a lot of friends this year, and continue with the relationship of some “old “ friends.

Also, I have to control myself from using the computer too long… I don’t want to hook up with this addicting mechanism.

Christmas is like Jesus’ birthday, who was born in Bethlehem.  Tis’ the season to be jolly!

Before I sign off, I would like to wish everyone of us a merry Christmas once more!

God bless, peace out!